Are blogs for writers? Well, I was rereading my old posts and thought- perhaps not. I know I never promised to be eloquent, but I think there was some secret hope that it would just happen. Accidentally. Anyway, here I am again, not even pretending to be a writer this time. But I felt it necessary to post something else here in this little, unnoticed corner of the web, because the past couple of years went very differently than I thought they would.
So many challenges. Yet- didn't I pray for them? Didn't I ask God to make me into a stronger person? With real faith? Yes, I think I did. I chose Robert Frost's road less traveled. "AND IT HURT MAN!" as Kid President says. (Look him up on youtube.) But it has all been worth it! And will be even more worth it as hindsight grows.
Now, I look to the future. 2013! It's great to be here. God has already used this year powerfully- He's used Mary Kay like Miracle Gro for me. Or more like Skele-Gro. Uncomfortable, unnatural, and downright painful at times. These are simply the grit and mortar of a strong foundation, one of joy, strength, grace, love. This is what I long for! All this is really about seeking the kingdom of God! All of it. And if being faithful in these moments of new movement, that leave me sore from muscles newly reawakened, is what it takes to step into my greatness, this calling of great boldness and greater humility, then I will do it. I don't know how. God doesn't often tell us the how, but the what. He will complete the work He has started in me.
We're marching on.